OMG– I feel like all I do on this blog is talk to myself – it’s not that I’m whinging, hoping for feedback, it’s just that all I can hear in my head is my own voice, trying to think of clever things to say…it all feels very forced.
I'm a writer – that’s what it says on my business card and my website. That’s what I do all day and get paid for.
Yet, I feel like I haven’t written an interesting, publishable word in months.
My friend Lorraine, who constantly amazes me, works as an accountant full-time and
yet had the time over the holidays to write an entire NOVEL – yes, that’s right, she just put her mind to it and wrote AN ENTIRE BOOK in a matter of weeks.
Yet... I can’t find the time to jot down 500 words to submit to the Facts and Arguments page in the
Globe and Mail.
Slim Paley is writing a book FOR GOD’S SAKE.
I’m starting to wonder if it’s the way I dress – maybe I should dress more like a
writer, something flow-y and literate (although I do wear all black, all the
time). Or maybe I need a better computer…or a nicer office….or better wine – maybe I need to read (I mean buy) more books on writing, you can see where this is going, I’m the master procrastinator.
Between talking to my lovely writing friend, being distracted by online manifestos and feeling
like my head is going to explode if I have to do something or write something
or say something in corporate-speak one more time…I have decided instead to
rant on this blog. I already feel better.
I have been thinking like a corporate manager for too long...and even though I have changed focus in my life, I keep thinking that way. It's a hard habit to break - write that memo, attend that meeting, deal with that client...but that’s going to change, starting today I am living my life as a writer.I’m going to write whatever I want on my blog, I’m going to host a Writer’s Association
meeting in my home, I’m going to start wearing flow-y, artistic clothes (no wait, maybe not that one) and when people ask me what I do, I’ll tell them what I do, not who I work for. It's a mind-set. Maybe I will write a book ...or at least a short story.
Life is short. Share your passion. I'm going to.